hope dont lose hope my dear

im not that kind from the way you see mee.
im not a person who tawaduk all the time
or most of the time
im not that kind in term of thinking about people
im not that perfect to the point that strangers may even see the flaw
im not that kind to be with
im not that kind
im not that baik to keep on thinking positive
im not that intelligent either
im not that kind to people
i may look kind and soft
but im not
im arrogant
selfish
and always forgot where im belong
im not like other people
i make sin that i dont even know what it was
i do things that lagha
i sometimes said bad stuff
bad mouth other people

but what ever i do
i know Allah with me
i dont hope any of you to be pity of me
Because i hve Allah
Allah hold me so that i walk properly on His path
But... It just me that i choose to walk away
But i tried and tried until i reach His paradise.
I hope and keep hoping from Allah
Because Allah knows best.

P/s: Nak nangis tulis ni ;(

what important is right now. let go of the past my dear. past destroyed you. i know its hard but tried and tried Allah like people who keep on trying

Life ;)

Dahh..... Form. 5.......

there are lots of thing going on this form 5. especially problem in form 4 that i kept on  dragging it all the way to this new year. well i supposed new year should hve new azam right. tp malas lah hahaha.

Well life. i dont really know how to judge it. but i hope what had happened to me all this years will make me more mature than i am. i know ive changed a lot.

dulu kemain baik kotttttttt ckp bende merepek pon tk byk. tp still bler bler style tu masih ade lah. mse kat jalan reko diorng ckp izzah sombong tau. but in jess, mungkin friendly mungkin tak. well. i dont know how people judge me.

satu bende nk kongsi. sometimes, i hope i can be psychologist. i want to search where the judgemental people come from. Judging people based on their cover is not good. But actually, when you want to read a book the first thing you see is tht cover right. how interesting the cover look change your mind about that book eventhough tht book' story line is boring. but this cannot be applied on the other book. some book may not look interesting, but only lucky and unique people who think that this book is interesting will pick up the book tht people dont really want to read. so to me. this cover book thing has lots of meaning.

itulah. kedakang in life. some people may dont like the way we are or even the way we look but some people like it. i just want to say please dont lose hope in life. There are many great things will happened after your misery. i say this because this is what i need. a few word just to comfort myself.

i know id change alot. people that i used to be with leave me when i need them. and thats when i felt people are all the same. humen are complicated you know. when this thing keep happened. i had no choice but to leave them i know that they did nothing wrong but it just the way how my mind work. stress agak nya form5 ni tu yg rasa org ashik tk faham jee. padahal tak de pape ponn.

now i know. no wonder lah my abang and ude moody je wktu form4 form 5 they barely talk. masuk u hambik kau,, mesra kemaiinnnn. berubah ke arah kebaikan ler tuu hehehe. i hope i will be the same path as them. if not, i hope Allah can guide me to the right path dengan rendah diri tanpa rasa ujub rik dan takabur.

p/s: truthfully i said, masa dapat result selalu rasa bangga, lepastu teringat kat Allah rasa takut pulak. sorry lah tak sempurnaa huhuhu. tp result tu tkde lah tinggi sgt ade je org lain lg tinggi. tp tu ahh bila belagak dahh datang rasa diri je hebat padahal menang anugerah pelajar terbaik pon tk pernah. sijil markah tertinggi huh mimpi lahhhh '-'

can't you be the devil

sometimes life are just to wonderful to describe.

there are many things in this world tht are more to be discovered.

if only people know how i feel!!! ohhhh so frustated, hahahahaha pening ahh. selalu tanya kenapa, why not tanya kenapa tak boleh? ok Allah with me! strong man strong. u r more stronger than a man. cey hahahah kene fikir positve! kene hypnotise my self!!!

boleh jadi gile ahh camniiii. Makin besar makin rasa ada masalah dgn manusia, but hey its not my fault if that person start it first. daaa >.>

mcm mana niiiiiii Ya Allah tolong lahh.frust nyeee huhuhuhhu since when did i care so much about humannnnnnN? T.T dulu wktu kecik kecik hppy je main lari lari ketuk songkok orng, main tiang tiang, gelakkan kawan yg berak dalam seluar lps tu ckgu marah. relax je tauuu. lepastu kalau ade laki confess kata suke ckp suke balik. lol. haha i dont even understand whats the meaning of love at tht time. ahhhh precious moment. sekarang ni! its true one of my friends friends said to Megat " why u dont smile in this pic?" then he replied, " because life is getting uninteresting" smthign like that lah. tp mmg betul pon.

but when you think about it back. how ironic. this is just the beginning of life. May Allah make us strong for the upcoming life.

P/S: feeling so sad. if u rasa "whats wrong with her?" takpeee im trying to hypnotise my self

result

oh mannnnnnn. makin lama belajar makin malas kot.

my result is so bad for this final exam. i mean, come on! new people, i learned a lot from them.
but why i think it's not enough.

kenapa wktu remaja ni bende cmni pon boleh nk rasa sensitip haaa?
frust nye result cmni. but i will try harder. it's okay i work as hell

lagi frust bile pressure from parents, and teachers, and my friends. and the most important thing is, pressure from my twin. (but i don't blame her, as she felt the same as i am)
you had no idea how pressure it is to be compared with your twin. (but most of the time having her around is a bless hahaha)

Bil	Mata Pelajaran	UJIAN 1		PEPERIKSAAN PERTENGAHAN TAHUN		UJIAN 2		PEPERIKSAAN AKHIR TAHUN		PEPERIKSAAN PERCUBAAN SPM
		Markah	Gred	Markah	Gred	Markah	Gred	Markah	Gred	Markah	Gred
1.	BAHASA INGGERIS [MA]	64	C+	83	A			77	A-
2.	BIOLOGI	64	C+	56	C			55	C
3.	BAHASA MELAYU [MA]	80	A	72	B+			72	B+
4.	FIZIK	73	B+	70	B+			79	A-
5.	KIMIA	60	C+	71	B+			53	C
6.	MATEMATIK [MA]	76	A-	91	A+			95	A+
7.	MATEMATIK TAMBAHAN	78	A-	74	B+			88	A
8.	PENDIDIKAN ISLAM [MA]	79	A-	89	A			84	A
9.	PENDIDIKAN JASMANI & KESIHATAN	82	A	84	A			84	A
10.	SEJARAH [MA]	64	C+	64	C+			63	C+
11.	SIVIK DAN KEWARGANEGARAAN	85	A	90	A+			71	B+
KDT		87 / 308		47 / 303		/		45 / 314		/
KDK		11 / 43		4 / 43		/		4 / 43		/
PERATUS		70.89		74.44				74

result through out the year. naik then turun sikit. huhu

P/S: takde niat pun nk show off ok. for real. my purpose for putting it in this blog is so that one day, when im old enough i will look back at my blog and read while laughing on how sensitive i am during my teenager. haha someday, it will be a good memory guysss. and another reason for putting this result is because next year dah form 5 kot, nanti result dlm SAPS akan didelete. so no record of my result. blog ni bleh lah simpan kannn .

;)

teenager's hal don't bother about it 

My inside

is it normal when you are being teenager, you feel, most of the time irritated or annoyed with someone easily.

When i was going through my puberty, i cried almost all the time because i just learned that how world can be so cruel sometimes.

is it normal that when you are being teenager, you want some attention from people. And sometimes you feel lonely because you realized that at the end, no one would stay by your side.

dan itulah kadang kalau rasa bersyukur jugak sbb i was born in Islam. if i dont have guidance in my life, i really don't know what will happen to me.

it's okay, kalau kan orang cakap kite memacam. memang sakit tapi kene fikir die pon bukan lah bagus sangat nak cakap kite cam tu. Di mata Allah ni kite cantik dah ok dah.

And there are a few times i felt so down that i felt no one can understand. not even my twin. i just say to myself

 " its okay, at least my dad believes in me. my mum too. n most of all, I have Allah that He lovingly tested me so that i remember Him."

2014

sorry. not that its a new year. but already in the middle of the year. So, my title is a bit boring.

This year. Dah masuk sekolah baru. Dunia baru. dan semua perangai baru.

frankly speaking,

It's a whole new WORLD! if people keep asking me which one is better, new or my old school,

To me, To tell you the truth. THERE IS NO ANSWER FOR THAT QUESTION. YOU CANNOT DIFFERENTIATE THEM.  It's stilll a school. 

So whenever people asked me about it, i just had to make sunat lies. SORRY. Don't wanna hurt anybody.

it's the same as they asked, "Camna nak bezakan korang yek?" i know I'm a TWIN....... But.....

SPEECHLESS.......................

we are the twin AHAKS ^^

Amboi masuk skolah baru sokmo gitu kecek omputih. hahahaha. Sorry lah. kene practice. Sebab tibe tibe markah bi tk pernah pernah dpt C. Paling teruk pon 79%.

New school i got C+. bapak serious sedih!  i cannot tell you the actual result. Tulis ni pon haaa. dah sedih. Sob Sob T.T

ok thats all I'll post it again dont worry 

Long TIme Very No See

Perghhhh. Dah lamo den tak tulis ni. Malas btul buzy kot 2013 ni disebabkan Exam PMR. Seriously!???
HUm Memandangkan dah bersarang dahhh blog ni. still. tulis laa jugak. Takkan nak abondoned plak un.

Today! very hectic. Baru start skolah mmg excited tp tulahhh.
Ini habit serious habit. Asal cikgu nk mengajar je, menguap byk kali!!! AHHHHHHH.
Is not like i dont want to pay attention tp mengantuk jee.
Haish.
That is why, before study Bismillahirrahmanirrahim dahuluuuuu. Ini lahhhh padahnyaaa.

Blajar Physics is like a whole new world. I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND A THING.

ok next story, mls nk citer pnjg2. Byk bbudak baru kelas SN. Anyway, Hope to be friends with u guyzzzzz. ;)

my blog is very classic u know. AHAKSSS hahahaha godik betulsss

Does it make sense?

you know how hurt it is to not having any friends when you are in difficulty?
you know how sad it is to have friends that stab you're back?
you know how mad it has been to have friends that you USED to close with but she ended up leaving you?

Its because i've been hurt so MANY MANY times. That i don't even trust any of them.
Im sorry to say, but people dont even know me. They just make an assumption when they even not close to me.

Inilah saya, i act harsh with my friends is because i dont want any of them felt betray when i dont speak to them.

Izzah selalu nak n naaakkkk sgt kalau Hani ade bile Izzah sng ! Hani selalu ade bile Izzah susah! Walaupun pernah bergaduh tapi Izzah tak pernah rase sakit hati dekat Hani! Because Izzah tahu Hani takkan kutuk Izzah dari belakang, Takkan buat Izzah sakit hati, n tak pandang Izzah dari segi mane sudut pun.
N Hani takkan betray Izzah.

:'L

p/s: although hani ade sekali due kutuk ( i know about it), time tu sbb izzah cari pasal time bru balik UK.

SIMPLE GORENG TEPUNG/ CEKODOK TEPUNG

Aiii. macam mane ni. Buat goreng tepung ponnnn tak kan tak tahu.
Orang Johor panggil goreng tepung. Tak tau laa tempat korang panggil ape. Cekodok ehh? Ape yeee..

SENANG JE NAK BUAT GORENG TEPUNG NI.
Walaupun izzah tak pernah buat. My beloved mother buat memang deabak!.

RESEPI GORENG TEPUNG RANGUP.
(Resepi ni main agak2 je, Walau macam mane pun nilai die, tetap akan jadi punye)

1. 16 ekor ikan bilis (nak letak sokay tak letak sokay),siap kopek
     2 biji bawang (sape tak suke bawang dont put many2), hiris
     tepung gandum. (letak je suke hati)
     Bahan tambahan: kalau nak letak carrot potong hiris nipis macam buat kerabu mangga tu pun boleh.

2. Dan semue bahan di atas campak dalam satu bekas. Gaul dengan penuh kasih sayang. (perlu ade kasih                      sayang, lagiiiii bertambah sedap, ucap bismillah)

3. And then, secret recipe nak rangup, letak air panas. Tuang je air panas dalam bahan tadi.
TAPI, jangan banyak sgt, lembik nanti. Ala2 boleh gentel. macam buat pergedel tuu. paham tak? macammmmm,.
boleh bentukk bulat.  Ermmm. Izah nak tunjuk tapi. SERIOUS LUPA NAK TNGKP GAMBAR.

4. Lepas tu, panas kan minyak dalam kuali. Campak je kan goreng tepung yang dh gentel bulat2 dan comel2 macam    orang nye. Take it with care ok.

5.Hidang cantik3. Then apa lagi, panggil semua orang keliling meja and MAKAN. NYUMMM :)

Try laa serious tak menyesal.

GORENG TEPUNG BIASA

1. (resepi semue same macam diatas)

2. Yang uniknye letak air biasa. YAng letak air biase ni, die kene macam air2. macam buat cekodok. tak boleh gentel coz die macam air2.Tapi kaan kalau letak air biase kan tak rangup. So, waktu masukkan banyak2 goreng tepung dalam kuali tu. Pisah pisah kan antara satu sama lain. Kan die melekat. Pisah2 kan.

3. Dengan cari itu die aku rangup.

4. Then hidang. :)

SORRY SANGAT2 TAK ADE GAMBAR. BUT TRY LAA. TAK NAK PUN TAKPE. BACE JE. :P

horton

WEYHHH KORANG! Tengok tak cerita Horton:

Serious gempak koottttttt.
Izzah dah berape kali khatam dahhh. very good.













Moral value in this story,: Person is a person no matter how small.

SINOPSIS NYE:

                            There was once an elephant named Horton lived happily in a jungle with his friends. One day, he find a clover WHICH has a tiny speck WHICH the city of Whoville lives in it. He tried tremendously hard to make sure Whoville safe on the top on the Mountain Nool. On his way, an evil kangaroo tried to stop all Horton's plan. The evil kangaroo thought that Horton tried to make their kids using their imagination. So, she encouraged all animals that Horton was lying and makes their kids stupid. But you know, Horton was not lying. Like he said, Elephant faithful is 100%. A person is a person no matter how small.
                             The evil kangaroo and all animals ran and caught the poor Horton. When Horton was pull by the monkeys, he tried really hard to protect the tiny speck which Whoville lives in it. when he was in war with the monkeys he ask the city of Whoville to make noise. Thanks to the city mayor son in the Whoville, Jojo saved their world by his invention in an old factory. The sounds crack the sky and made a sound.
                            But poor. Only Horton heard them. The clover is now in the hand of evil kangaroo. The mighty Horton had tried his best but one vs many people he knows he would lose. The moment the evil kangaroo let go of the clover into a hot boiling water, her son took the clover and told everybody that there a sound coming from the speck. It was the most beautiful sound you've ever heard. The city of Whoville said 'WE ARE HERE'. And we know that. When everyone heard it, they all let go of Horton and together they save the city of Whoville. But poor evil kangaroo, no one care and there she is sat alone in a corner.
                           But hey, this is Horton we talking about. Person is a person no matter how small. So, Horton looked at the evil kangaroo and the evil kangaroo smile.
                            Now, they all gather and united to protect the Whoville city.

THE END.

So good you know. Sorry la kalau English hancur. Ini 100 percent otak punye ye. ok laa. JANGAN LUPE TENGOK.

OOOH Party

OOOOOOHHOOOOOO.

Exam waaa dah habis derrrrr. :) Tak dok stress2 lagi dehhhh...
Happy nyyeee. Walaupun banyak bantai.
Lantak laa markah lagu mana, Yang penting result simpan kat diri cek sajooo.
(suke hati aku jee buat slang mane2 ntah)
Anyway kan nak habis sekolah, Sooooo, Enjoy laaa.

LALALALALALALALALA
Alhamdulillah.
Target? hummmm. Lantak piii laaa.
Pikirkan pasal upcoming ceriter lagi best. heehehhe.

BISMILLAH. :)

SINCERE

? WhaT?
Do people now days like that?
What sin had i done that people hate me?

This is my face. MY NORMAL FACE LIKE THIS -------> -.-"
What do you aspect from me?
To smile at you everyday?
Does my face look ugly that you feel like want to make me as enemy?

Come on!
Friends by face doesnt exist.
Kawan with that person cos depa cantik?
ambooiii.

LOOKS LIKE YOU HAVE UNDERESTIMATE ALLAH BEAUTY.

OHH tolong.
Semua orang cantik. Maybe not by face, but by their heart.

Yang Izzah tau Izzah tak menyusahkan sape2,
I dont wanna be the latest trend or ape2.
Just ME . MYSELF. Do you even understand?

Lantak laa kuno kee ape ke. Hiburan whats make me far from who I am.
Tudung labuh tak kuno! Baju paras peha tak kuno! Malah lebih baik!

Yang penting, respect other please. Dah tak kenal suke je buat spekulasi sendiri.

PERKARA YANG PATUT DILUPAKAN:

a. Dosa orang kepada kita.

PERKARA YANG PATUT INGAT:

a. Dosa kita kepada orang.

Everyone make mistakes sweet heart. :)

Kita kena sentiasa ingat Allah tengok apa yang kita buat, malaikat catit apa yang kita buat. Allah tengok sama ada Izzah tulis nii, bawak manfaat dunia ke akhirat. 

Yang penting, Alwayyyss n alwaayyyysss ask forgiveness to Allah. Insyaallah. 

DON'T ever solat lewat2. Jika Allah panggil kita, cepat2 laa datang. There's lots and lots and lottttsss of MANFAAT. 

Hope we all get JANNAH from Allah. 

:) HAJJ

Satu sahaja tujuan kita hidup diatas muka bumi ini.
Pass Allah test. Insyaallah you will get Allah bless.

NGELUH?

Tiada dalam kamus Islam perkataan 'mengeluh'.
Renung. Mengeluh kerana what you done is not because of Allah.

BELIEVE ME
If Allah the reason you live, There's no word 'mengeluh' in your life.

Lets us together save our money.
So that we can fulfill ourselves as a Muslim.

LETS GO TO HAJJ.

Alhamdulillah. :) Walaupun score turun. Bersyukur.
SMK JALAN REKO

SLIP KEPUTUSAN - PEPERIKSAAN PERTENGAHAN TAHUN - 2012

Nama	:	ZAIDATUL IZZAH BINTI ZAINAL ABIDIN	Tingkatan	:	T2 2SP1
No. KP	:	980310017358	Jantina	:	PEREMPUAN

Bil	Mata Pelajaran	Markah	Gred
1.	BAHASA INGGERIS	86	A
2.	BAHASA MELAYU	72	B
3.	GEOGRAFI	73	B
4.	KEMAHIRAN HIDUP 3 - PERT	88	A
5.	LITERASI KOMPUTER	47	D
6.	MATEMATIK	91	A
7.	PENDIDIKAN ISLAM	84	A
8.	PENDIDIKAN JASMANI & KESIHATAN	52	C
9.	PENDIDIKAN SENI VISUAL	77	B
10.	SEJARAH	55	C
11.	SIVIK DAN KEWARGANEGARAAN	94	A
12.	SAINS	80	A

Bilangan Mata Pelajaran Daftar	:	8	Jumlah Markah	:	629
Kedudukan Dalam Kelas	:	2 / 37
Kedudukan Dalam Tingkatan	:	2 / 366	Peratus	:	78.63
Kehadiran	:	/ Hari	Gred Purata Pelajar	:	1.5
Pencapaian Gred Keseluruhan	:	5[A] 2[B] 1[C]	Keputusan	:	LULUS

Nama Guru Kelas	:	MOHAMAD JALIL BIN MOHAMAD YUNUS
Ulasan Guru Kelas	:

THINK LAAAAAAA LAAAAA

Why nak raye ni tak terase nak raya?

Ya Allah, Kalau lah setiap bulan itu Ramadhan. kan best. Pahal berlipat lipat lipat kali gandoooooo :D
Tapi kan, sesetengah orang puasa sebulan tapi amalan 0%

Macam mana tu? Same2 kite renung.

Syurga itu mahal. Cube pikir, samapi bile? Samapai bila kite rasa kita ni hidup?
Adakah2 selama2 nye hidup kat bumi ni, dengan manusia? Tak bosan kah?

Ya Allah, Peringatan buat ku juga.

I'm in process of being a better person. Jangan kite tukar mendadak. Tukar perlahan2. little by little. :)

P/S: orang tak malu dengan orang kaya. Tapi orang malu dengan orang yang berbudi bahasa. Biar kita ni miskin, Janji kite hormat orang, and jaga batas.

Jangan hot di dunia takut hot di neraka. :D


Assalamualaikum.

ITS PROUD TO BE WOMEN

Wanita masa menjadi 'anak' boleh
membawa orang tuanya ke syurga..*boleh
juga ke neraka jika tak menutup aurat dgn
sempurna dll*..

ketika menjadi isteri,dia juga penentu syurga
atau neraka si suami... .

Ketika menjadi ibu, syurga berada di bawah
telapak kakinya..

*beruntungnya wanita*

Pembaca yang dirahmati, Jadi lah wanita yang berjuang untuk agama.

walau dalam keadaan tengang mahupun gelisah, Allah lebih Mengetahui. 

Allah sebaik2 tempat mengadu.

To Allah we live, and to Allah we die. 

Assalamualaikum.

BE BETTER EVERYDAY AND EACH DAY .

I YER KER

Mengikut kajian saya, seorang marah boleh membabit kan lebih dari seorang marah. (kajian gred c) 

MENAKJUBKAN TIDAK? 

Tetapi bagi orang yang tak marah pada masa itu, pasti akan marah disebabkan die marah kenape orang tu nak marah?

MENAKJUBKAN TIDAK?

Orang yang dapat menahan marah adalah orang yang ingat pada Allah dan fikir akan akibat apabila marah nanti.

MENAKJUBKAN TIDAK?

Apabila marah, pasti anda rasa bodoh marah dengan orang yang tak valuable marah atau erti kate lain banyak lagi kerja lain aku boleh buat!. ( tak baik takabur namanye) 

MENAKJUBKAN TIDAK?

Marah boleh membuat kan seseorang hilang pertimbangan rasa dan mengikut hawa nafsu syaitan.

MENAKJUBKAN TIDAK?

TIDAK!? PIKIR ELOKSSSS ELOKSSSS. 

IYA? YA YA JE KAU NIE. -.-"

EEE . nak jee aku ambik. nafsu ni nafsu. dah laaa aku puase? 

 aihhh, tak boleh jadi ni. 

JOGGING

wahhhhh. Orang lari pagi2 korang sedap berselimut . Tau tak, berselimut pagi2 syaitan tolong selimut pakai kulit babi tau. Apa kata pagi2 buat amal sikit. Tolong2 ape yang patut. Alhamdulillah. Allah beri kekuatan dan kesihatan. Guna laaa betol2.

tengok! happy gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! :D